More than a few years ago, the morning of July 28th, 2011 to be exact, I woke to hear myself say "I'm moving to L.A." The words came from my mouth without the permission of my brain. I'd not before considered living in L.A., or even given active thought to leaving San Francisco. SF was my home, had been my happy home for eighteen years, and I loved it. I expected to remain in that fabled city for the rest of my days. But then those words came out. The life I thought I was going to lead, that I thought was mine, all locked up and figured out, was not to be.
Did the thought originate in my unconscious? Or was it a message from God, from Spirit, through me? Did the words mean anything? Should I take them seriously? Those were decisions for me to make. Maybe the idea was from my unconscious and the Universe both. If I'm going to believe there is anything beyond me, beyond my current understanding of life, I thought, I had better listen. And do.
The next morning I informed my landlord I was not going to be continuing my rent-controlled lease. Over the following four weeks, I sold, gave away, and threw out nearly everything I owned. Winnowed my belongings to what could fit in half of a friend's car and four bags. Said goodbye to a place I thought I'd never leave and to friends I wasn't sure when, if ever, I'd see again.
Over the next five years, I lived not only in L.A. but also Myrtle Beach, Palm Springs, Ventura County, Carson City, and Rocklin. I was sometimes homeless; I slept outside a few nights and other times at the homes of those I barely knew. A couple of times I had about nothing to eat. At one point, one dark, humid, hot summer night in Palm Springs, I had only fifty-four cents to my name. I met new and generous and also some less kind people en route. Funny where life will take you if you go with it. It was an existence far from my comfortable upbringing. Worth the price I've paid. I recommend the specifics to few but am mighty glad I've had it.
Along the way, I read, studied, listened, explored, prayed; rode my bicycle, talked, got odd jobs, made new friends; and had times in flow with the universe and others of not small fear.
I present my experiences and resulting thoughts here in LukeyoutheU. I have found this: life is good, and we can add more good to it. If you decide to prospect LukeyoutheU, this idea, you will find challenges to who you think you are. I think, hope, and expect you will also grow to see more clearly how all the world fits together, and is good. My earnest desire is that the good that is will be laid hold of, and made more.