Hello! My name is Jake Knight.
I stand six feet tall, when wearing thick-soled shoes, and weigh about 165 pounds. Male, white, and gay. Single. My hair is brown and, increasingly, gray. I have completed more than fifty years on this spinning globe and plan for fifty more.
Intellectually, I am a believer in science, history, self, others, life, causality, relationality, oneness, quantum physics (as far as I understand it), and the Bible.
Philosophically, I am a Jesian, spiritual, and pragmatic. Extremely pragmatic, at times. The Myers-Briggs Type Indicator has me as an E/INFP which, by my reckoning, is pretty much spot on. I know I am imperfect, and perfect, too. History, the sweep of events, finding and creating meaning, the relationship of thought, action, and things: these and other topics capture my interest and help keep me alive.
My formal studies include:
8.5 formative years in the Montessori method;
6 at prep schools, the first co-ed and the second all-boys, both experiences also formative;
and at the University of Virginia, formative indeed.
(I find myself in continual formation.)
At UVa, that school in Charlottesville, I received a B.S. in Commerce and a minor in Religious Studies; almost, but not quite, got into a graduate level creative writing course but did get an A in an intermediate undergraduate one; was honored to be Chairperson of the Guide Service and live on the Lawn. A lot lot has happened since those early days, most of it obviously good. Suffice it to say that I have not changed so much as I have become more me.
I am a big fan of Star Wars, Star Trek, Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter, Marvel Cinematic Universe, Battlestar Galactica, Stargate, Babylon 5, Dune.
Places I have lived and called home:
San Francisco, CA (18 years)
Bowie, MD (14)
Baltimore, MD (4)
Charlottesville, VA (3)
New York, NY (3)
Worthington Valley, MD (3)
Palm Springs, CA (2)
Newbury Park, CA (2)
West Tisbury, MA (1)
Myrtle Beach, SC (.75)
Los Angeles, CA (.5)
Currently, my home is in good old Rocklin, CA. (2)
The numbers are cumulative and approximate.
I have been fortunate to have traveled outside the United States some, more to Greece, Italy, and Canada than elsewhere. Have had brief, US-sized visits to Switzerland, Australia, France, Spain, England, Croatia (when it was part of the former Yugoslavia), Austria (where I received amazing hospitality, not that I have not elsewhere because I have), the Bahamas (sailing off the Out Islands of the Abacos), and Bermuda.
I have been to enough places both within and outside the United States to know that there are many different ways to live. Many good ways to live.
For one year, near the beginning of my time in San Francisco, I did not leave the city's seven-by-seven square mile boundaries once.
I have also had serious time, shall we say, working on the inside. My inside. This has included reparative therapy (by my own choice, not successful, and I do not recommend) and cognitive therapy (which I also chose for myself and found greatly useful and good).
I have been a good friend, a not-so-good friend, seen people pass into and from my life. Some folks, I suspect, I shall never see again. Been befriended by a few who are super rich and have received gracious generosity from those with little to their name. One woman in particular comes to mind: a kind lady in LA, but not from LA, who paid my fifty-cent bus fare when I had no money. She subsequently invited me to a simple lunch, hosted in her studio apartment home.
One time, I remember standing, in the wee hours of the morning, on a desolate street corner in San Francisco, and feeling quite alone.
For years, I drank too much.
I have had the enormous fortune, at different times, to have had plenty and traveled; to have been in the day-by-day grind of those who work for a living, who are, or feel they are, just getting by; and being essentially homeless, with very little materially (though spiritually, for me, it was a boon). Paying work has included retail, shepherding prep school kids, being a camp counselor, shifting boxes, serving as a mechanic's helper, writing an employment agreement in human resources, representing an art school, working in laundromats, selling expensive items and dreams, managing people, serving briefly as a regional manager for an international luxury goods company, cashiering at a big box store, driving people around, and promoting soda. I have been the lowest person in the pecking order, wrestled with the politics of being in the middle, and been closer to the top.
Other stuff has happened, too. I had a childhood bone disease which put me in a cast and crutches for more than a year; was hit head-on by a drunk driver when he was going ninety in his car and I sixty miles per in the opposite direction in mine; was hospitalized for a month in a mental hospital as I struggled with being gay as a young man; was accused of and stood trial for a serious crime which I did not commit seven years after that.
I write of these events/ life experiences to suggest that I have had times of ease, boredom, and also difficulty. In other words, I have had what one might call good, bad, and mediocre days and years. Overall, though, I say "Life is good." When I say "Life is good," I do not say it lightly; I mean Life is good. I am a part of Life, you are a part of Life, of that good. Life is not, nor best lived as, in my experience, always easy. Sometimes, I have found life to be quite hard. Still, I have found/ learned to make the good in life, of Life, even when it was hard. Not always perfectly, mind you, nor every day, but usually.
I can recognize now, in hindsight, that even my difficult times have brought me rewards. Brought me to greater life.
LukeyoutheU, this idea, website, the podcasts and writings, represent part of the whole of my life. They are not all of my life's work but they are much of its fruit. I hope you find LukeyoutheU useful, and good.
books, movies, television, videos, and podcasts that have influenced me
this I know
a philosophy of life
I took this photo behind the big box retailer where I worked one winter's sunset. It was during one of those times, and there have been more than I few, that I wondered who I am and what I am about. The laptop version shows clearly the piercing yellows, oranges, and gray, The photo was taken at sunset on a winter's day in Rocklin, CA. The vibrancy of the oranges and flares of yellow astound me still.